Damn day!!

This is the worse day of my life....damn.....
you know why .....one of my Colleagues JASON....
his is the jerk i ever see in my life ....damn rite.....
when he need u to help him....he will talk will u with his stupid face and ask u to help him....
when u say him was wrong or sum thing is asks to do ...but he did't do...... he say u're crazy ......
when he lost sum thing ....u asks where is the thing ......he will say..... gila kau .....mean by u crazy .....one time he lost the money of company that customer pay...he act like dun noe...till the day my bos's sister ask his best friend miss lim...he just telll.....see ......in this world still have this kind of person....working with a jerk like this...i think i will get unlucky in my life all the day.....wish i can get rid of this kind of people.....rite ?????

我也不知道！！

有时我快认不清我自己是谁了！！
生气 = 对我来说，好像是在惩罚自己一样！
哭泣 = 对我来说， 好像快失去了方向！
欢笑 = 对我来说 ， 就好像一场梦般！
害怕 = 对我来说， 好无助！
真的！ 我已经不知道该怎么办了！
我好担心，我会不会就这样疯了！
我已经不知道该怎么办了！
我。。。。。好累了！！！

Happy~Happy

2moro is 1 of october....I'm so happy ....U know why ???

Because i going home 2moro....sooooo happy ......Actually i'm super happy...... ^^

After three month at here ...finally going home ,but plus by the time (march28 til june 10) almost a half year i been helping my cousin to take care his kid...... wah....that is a very respossible jod....^^ hiu~~~

But,is quite fun being here too...coz can see alot of new thing that kuching did't have....is a experian to me....like going to royal show...go farm house....strawberry field....n what i love the most is the beach over here...the water is so clear n blue....Loving it so so so much...n by the way....i'm a girl who like water very much...espeacially beach.....wu wu wu....^^

Well....even i love it here so much....but,still i love my hometown "kuching " too....

Coz all my beloved friend n beloved family all live at kuching....so i think the place i love the most still is kuching .....haha....go other place for travel is ok la....but live there ...i still gonna think 1st.....^^ .... Coz is feel hurt to leave my family n friend.... Coz i love them all so so much.....muazzkk~~ ^3^~~ and that why i can't live without them~~

Royal show

Today is 27sep 2009 sunny day
My bro are going to bring his kid's and me go to the royal show...coz i never go to the royal show befor...seen i come many time...(actually the royal show only open a week each year),so i always miss it lo...haiz....
But,luckly this year i got the chance to go ...yeah~~so happy ....^^
We going out around 10a.m and we going to the royal show by train ,so my bro dirve us go to the train station n park the car...take all the thing down ..n off we go to the royal show....haha...but 1st....gonna buy a ticket la....if no the ticket ...how we go in the train ar...... swt ^^"
When we reach there is around 11p.m
When we just came out from the train station ,we already stand in front the royal show....so near ...using the train is easy...and fast....haha...
Today have many many ppl.....just can't count it...is too many ...(today i'm saw the newspaper,there is writing=12,000 at the royal show....can u believe it ! wah....that is a large number.....)
There have so many many thing to see n buy...like showbag...(is a bag that have a few thing inside) it really worth it...only 20 aussin dolar...is quite cheap....hehe.....my bro got buy many of the showbag...n camel,pony ride....cat,goat,sheep,all kind of bird...ginny pig...chicken,goosh ,duck...many many la...n have many motorcycle...the sport one...is really nice...n face painting, fake tattoo...but look like real...^^ n all kind of dilicious food...yummy yummy....but ,i can't eat...cozi 'm a vegetarian....but to my other cousin...them should enjoy it...hehe
there is so many intresting thing....just i'm alone....all my other cousin are not here with me ...so i just play 2 thing at there...is fun...but really boring ....coz i'm play alone....haiz....T^T
we at there til 8 something p.m ,just get the train n go homw..when i reach home ...already is 9 .30p.m.... is really tired though.....but, now i know the royal show have many thing to play...so let's plan to invited all the cousin come next year..having fun together is more happy....^^

Loving someone

爱一个人，不是说你付出就一定有结果！
爱得太深，往往受伤害得都会是自己！
我从这场爱情中，受了伤！关闭自己！也关闭了内心的一切！也把我的感情封闭了！
因为在这场的幸福，被爱！ 天天开开心心的在一起！都好像在做梦般！
当~被伤害后，我好像才从梦中醒来！才发现，才知道爱原来那么的残酷！
就在被伤害后才发现那感觉也好痛好痛！而对自己曾经爱过他的那段日子好甜却好~痛苦 ！
两年了，那种感觉还是忘不了！真得好苦！
就算是短短的一年感情！ 但对我来说是最长的一年！
就我放入了太多感情！爱得太深了！到最后我受了伤！
现在，我已经改变不了事实！该发生的都发生了！已经不能挽回！
唯一的就是，接受这个事实！
我只想走出那种感觉！ 我相信我应该可以吧！
就但我身边有了一个伴侣（新伴侣），那应该就是我走出那种感觉的时候吧！
如果，可以走在一起很久很久！ 那才是我走出我的心房的时候吧！

~很抱歉~

今天早上，我起床时，是六点多这样吧！
而且，我这个人啊！没有七点半！是不起床的！
因为我睡不够，脾气特别不好！（我应该说，我不喜欢被吵醒吧！ 而且我起床气，一路来都不是很好！）就像今天啊！
起了床，就去洗澡！
洗澡后，我把我的衣服拿去洗！ 把我的毛巾拿去晾！
过后就走出客厅，姑姑就叫住我！ （因为她要煮粥，小孩吃的！）
是叫我喂alanna吃bubble rice 配她牛奶 ！ （因为她有一个不好习惯，就是不把奶喝完！真是头痛~~）
所以我就喂咯！可是跑上又跑下的！一下躺着，一下跑到沙发上跳那跳这！啊~~~~
喂到我~~~~~~~~~~~~~~！不要讲了！（我只要是在美梦中，被吵醒的话，脾气就不会很好！也不会给好脸色的，要我哄她。。门都没有。。。就像今天喂alanna 这样）

我很抱歉啊！！！
嗨！！！！！！！！！！！
真不知道我这脾气像谁啊？？？（像大舅像到完！ 大舅我可没有要学你哦！ 我也没办法！
）
不过，如果我睡到时间，我自己起床的话！脾气就没有这么坏！ 我就跟小孩特别好！ 哄她，配她，给她洗澡，给她吃粥，给她睡觉！ 奇怪？？？ 为什么会这样哦？？？
真希望可以改掉！这个不好的习惯！！！但还是需要时间！！！
也可能是在那之后的渐渐几年间，我改变太多了！糟糕啊！！！

我只好尽我所能去改我的这个坏习惯吧！！　

替我加油吧！！！　︿︿ 　也祝我成功啊！！！

I'm not so sure!

Actually i be thinking about sum question vry long time ago!!
Do i really noe what i want...
want ~ (I not really sure, but, i just wish to learn hair dressing n after got extra then go study photography)
love ~ (Actually i not sure who i love n like, coz now i don't know what is love o like any more ,i totally freking out)
family ~ (I totally no idea how to help my family , coz i also a bit fiance promble too ,but ,when i earn money i sure let them to relax n enjoy they life! i' promise)
friend ~(sometime when my friend need to help , i can't help any thing ,just sit down and lister what happen to him/her ,i'm totally useless! shit!)
my best ~(even though i done my best , in some ppl eye ,i'm never done my best~ chsss~~~)
happy ~ (some time i not really happy , i just acting that i'm happy , coz i always got a big big smile on my face, i just don't want any one to worry about me, especially my family)
i 'm annoying ~(why why why? Do them really that hate me , is yes! just say so , don't hurt me like this , i feel so pain then they say it strightly to me T^T)
I'm not bad ~(I not a bad gal ,i'm nt a good gal erither,coz i need to protect myself, i can't let any ppl to hurt me any more~)
child~ (in they eye i always a kid ,never grow , them always worry about me this n that, but them never say any thing , them just look at me quitely ,coz i need to grown uo ,them know it , always ! but , don't woli ~ i always love them always be)
careless ~ (I'm not careless , i just acting i don't care ,but i really do care about them !)
whatever , i just wish next year is a wonderfull year n every thing is going to be great to me ~^^